Memoirs of a Spanish Country Pastor - 32

Translated by Lucille Lussier  from the French book,
Memoirs d'un Cure Campagne Espagnol.
Reprinted from GARABANDAL MAGAZINE

    On Sunday, February 13, 1966, as I was making my thanksgiving after Communion, I experienced both a great joy and an even greater sorrow and deception. I heard the voice of Christ telling me:

    "Conchita, you come here to the convent school to prepare yourself to be my spouse and, you say, to follow me. Do you not say, Conchita, that you seek to do My Will? Well, now you are seeking to do yours. Will it be this way all your life? I chose you in the world so that you would remain in it, experiencing the many difficulties that you would encounter because of Me. I want all this for your sanctification and so that you may offer it for the salvation of the world. You must talk to the world about Mary. Remember, in June, [apparently in another locution] you asked Me if you would be a nun. I replied that wherever you were, the cross and suffering would be your lot. I repeat this to you now, Conchita, did you ever hear Me calling you to be My spouse? No, because I have never called you."

    I asked him: "But how does one hear Your call to be a nun?"

    He replied: "Don't worry about that. You will not hear it."

    Then I said to him: "Then You don't love me, Jesus?"

    He answered: "Conchita, you ask me that? Who redeemed you? Accomplish My will and you will find My love. Examine yourself well. Think more about souls. Do not be concerned about temptations. If you remain faithful to My love, you will overcome numerous temptations that await you. Understand intelligently what I have said to you, intelligently in a spiritual way. Do not close the eyes of your soul. Do not let yourself be deceived by anyone. Love humility, simplicity. Never think that what you have done is much. Consider what you have to do and what you must do, not to gain heaven but for the world, so that
people may accomplish My Divine Will. Every soul that prepares itself, that remains disposed to hear Me, shall know what My Will is.

    "I want to tell you, Conchita, that before the miracle occurs, you will suffer much, for few people will believe you. Your own family will believe that you have deceived them. I am the one who wants all this, as I have already told you, for your sanctification and so that the world may comply with the message. I wish to advise you that the remainder of your life will be continually suffering. Do not be frightened. In your suffering you will find Me and also Mary whom you love very much."

    I asked if in Rome they would also cease to believe, but he did not answer me.

    He also told me: "Do not worry yourself with whether people believe or do not believe. I shall do everything. But I will also give you suffering. I will be with whomever suffers for Me."
 

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